I am addicted to this song.. I have been playing it the whole day.
Yes, just listening to this song.
我会好好过 by 李玖哲
你的爱很像泡沫
太轻或太重
都不在手中
我的爱就像天空
太放或太收
你都只是风
你来过却爱上自由
你出走我不问理由
我会好好过
等你再爱我
总有个角落
会让你想起我
我会好好过
等你再爱我
向右或向左
都有我站在这里守候
你留下很多
够我面对寂寞
寂寞不重
重是爱太多
当你回头
看到的一定是我….
我会好好过, 我会好好的look after myself will you come back to me?
Yesterday Sunday, I was at ECP the whole day – Lifeguard hut.
Reach about 8.15am early right. Those guys were still sleeping so bad of me to reach so early and wake them up. Wahahahaz. This time round the first time I wanted to do was to cycle. While waiting for those guys to wash up and head for breakfast I lent AH bike and off I went cycle all the way to the end of ECP. This time round the feeling in me isn’t there anymore. I no longer link things and him together. Is it a good thing? It shows that I have let go uh.
I don’t know what the hell happen to me. For the whole day, I just wanted to cycle although I have to help with the painting.
We had great chat at the lifeguard hut. Food drinks that filled our stomach. The two brothers were here to have fun with us too. Coach was here to help too. Everyone have fun I guess. The room was tidy up much neater; the grasses were being cut, the gate was being paint halfway; the toilet is being clean up. More or less, we manage to get some stuff done.
We brought fruits Maggie mee egg and other tibits and drinks there. I guess the next time round when I go down I will clean up the cupboard make it look nicer.
We will have the chair and table scrubs as well; guess it will look nicer.
After all the fun laughter and work, the pain was here….
The pain took myself away…
Tears rolled I wish I can control.
Some said I didn’t take care of myself but I already didn’t exert any force on it.
No one understand, the only thing they know and will say is I never take care of myself when I did.
Haiz…
If I have taken more care he wouldn’t have leave me….
If my headache didn’t happen I wouldn’t be admitted to hospital, if I didn’t get admitted your parent wouldn’t say anything, you would have left me.
If I don’t have gastric problem, you wouldn’t have need to bring me to doctor, your parents wouldn’t have said I am weak, you wouldn’t have left me..
Well everything over. I should let it go.
You said you got a girlfriend, I shall give you my blessing.
I should be a healthier girl so that guy will like me no need to worry.
But why some have their boyfriends to stand by them where as I don’t..
Haiz…
Shall not say anymore. It just hurts.
Starting from today I am going to control my expenses to the max. One month with $400 of expenses, only can I survive?
I have too; I will have to learn; I need to.
Don’t think I can lend bike from ECP that often anymore…
Mummy was discussing about the Mt Ophir trip that I am heading to last night. From her words, I know she is worried but I make it a point that since I have this chance to why not. If I miss the chance how long more should I wait.
I am going and by any means, I am going to head to the summit.
I am excited about this trip… very excited.
At the same time, she reminded me about my chalet. I have to start planning once Lin sister confirm the chalet with me this 15 August.
The planning will have to start…
Sister has already start preparing my present. Wahahhahaz. I am so excited to know what present she giving me. =)
May everything goes well.
May all my friends come.
May my parents come and enjoy themselves.
May it be a fun enjoyable memorable chalet.
Everyone so excited; I get my friends to help hope they are willing to.
If I have a boyfriend to celebrate this day with me isn’t that be great?
I am dreaming again.
Mummy said many things to me last night. Things that make me think a lot. I will take her words and make sure I do it.
I am grown up. I should plan for everything. My expenses are growing.
I am interdependent. I pay for all my expenses; I have to take care of sister other needs and studies needs. I no longer rely on my parents.
I have to manage things more properly.
Can I do it? **Thinking….
I will have to do it…
I have to do it…
Yes, I wouldn’t give myself any choice, just a fixed decision.
I am going to get my window clean up.
I am going to clean up my study table.
I am going to all my clothes iron.
Yes I am going to get all these things done by today.
Blogged on Monday...last day of JUNe..
Where were you when skies were grey
8/04/2006 11:39:00 PM <3
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