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| Havent been blogging for quite some time, sorry guy but I doubt anyone drop by my blog. I been staying up late at company because there simply too many work to finish. By the time I am home, wash my clothes tidy up my room its already 9 to 10 plus. Online for a moment and there I go, on my bed, sleeping like a pig. Too tired for anything else, even to coach my sister on her studies. Tired. Very tired but still without fail I will still hang out on weekend. =) His dad pass away last week. A very young dad, but some time it like you rather let him go first then let him stay and suffer all the pain. No offence because different people has different mindset. Well, the smile is still on his face. Deep down he is upset isn’t it? I don’t know. I want to give him a hug can I? Ever since last Thursday no sms from him till yesterday night, when I finally receive a sms from him when I was in the train. I was surprised of course, was grinning all the way to the pool. Wahahaz~ Crazy me. Went over to shelter him over to the pool because this lazy pig didn’t bring umbrella. Stoopid him. He insisted he want to wait but I insist to shelter him because he has just recover from all the tiredness if he get under the rain confirm will fall sick. I have fallen for him is it? but he said he wouldn’t like me. So we be pool buddy. =p Yesterday was a kind of up and down day. Up day because I design my own company product label design, I printed them out and pack them nicely and there it goes into the toolbox. Who ever order this toolbox will see my design inside. Wahahahaz. I was over the moon when I finished everything yesterday evening. You could see me smiling non-stop. Although no one will know that its me who does it but there is a sense of satisfaction in myself. But some idiot make me scold them, my blood boils on the sight of them. The other day I broke down, sometime these people don’t use their brain. Their brain are simply grown on the butt. If you will to witness these you wouldn’t believe that these two man who is like 50 plus years old still will do this kind of thing. So stupid. Idiot!! Arh! I complain everything out to mummy; luckily, she can still understand my stand. Haiz. I wouldn’t let you guy be so arrogant. I will improve myself and take over everything. I will prove to my dad I can do it. I will prove to you guys I am not that weak. I wouldn’t let you guy bully me. Stupid old manss..you suck up. These two old man are always here to spoilt my day. Too much work also complain, little yet simple job also complain. Might as well stay at home shake leg wait for cheque to drop down. Brain on the butt. Down day happen in the evening part when I went for training. The sudden change of mood was like so immediate. Just like a rocket shooting up the sky. I push myself to the maximum during the 3 events but my timing sucks. It was far too away from the ideal timing that I always have. I am totally disappointed in myself, dishearten. I been training. Stamina speed. Stamina speed. He was here to comfort me again after training. He sms me a lot., telling me to keep on trying. I can swim a lot that training on stamina not speed, I need to stay focus, focus on my stroke. FOCUS!!! I always try to look on the brighten side and move on, this time round his words didn’t move me, I no longer motivate myself, no energy to go on. I am tired. If you see me swim, I think you will vomit. Haiz~ serve me right. that’s why I miss this coming test, I wonder how long more then I can go for test. I want be a lifeguard. I want become a instructor. How long more to my dreams? At my this speed, I think I take a thousand years. Demoralizing myself. Sound stupid but I can’t help it. This weekend I am going to the IT fair, get my NANO fixed and Earpiece changed and fanical wash my appointment is due. Not forgetting to visit my aunt at hospital and look after the two naughty kids. ARGH!! I guess everything be like hell. 21 more days to my appointment. I am scare. Will my treatment cost me a bomb? Will my money be enough for it? Will I need to go for op? What will they say? What will they do? I guess I just have to wait for the day to come and stop guessing. Bless me. |
Where were you when skies were grey
8/31/2006 09:32:00 PM <3