My eyes are like goldfish now. From a look everyone know how long I have cried.
I am a cry baby isn’t it?
In 2 month time he be leaving to US for 2 years. Yes 2 years, it is indeed very long.
I couldn’t believe what he had said.
I did say him stay but everything was too late since the decision is final.
He chose to leave because he said he could learn more things over there.
I made a silly request he din accept. He said he need time to think but by the time I think he is really to leave.
2 months , I guess he has a lot of thing to settle before he leave. His parent put stress on him. I don’t want to add on his stress.
What should I do?
I cant let it go.
I cant make him stay.
Can someone guide me tell me what to do.
He said he don’t want to hurt me more.
Cant you just leave 2 month of memories for me before you leave?
I know it will hurt me more but..i chose to why not let me.
I am being selfish thinking all for myself and not in your shoes.
I thank you for telling me that we leaving at least u didn’t leave quietly like the period of time you went Indonesia.
You wish me a advance happy birthday but I guess I don’t need it. how I wish you can come for my chalet but I know it impossible now.
Is everything going to carry on?
I am not sure myself.
I am confess. Confuses. Lost. Mixed feeling.
Haiz.
S told me to remain a good friends to him. Let him decide on what he want to do and stuff. ya it easy to say so. Of course thing. Thanks for all your words but I don’t need them.
Despite being so upset, their words keep appearing on my mind. It jus haunting me in my brain. On and off I could hear them telling me repeat those words.
Go away from me…
Got lecture by dad and mum last night. Shut the computer and went to hide under my blanket. Kept crying till I fall asleep.
Tired very tired..
I want to get myself drunk smoke like no body businesses can anyone accompany me?
I got to move on… no matter what. Noone here to show concern show care to me.
I don’t know how to entertain people.
I don’t want to be a clown anymore.
I don’t want to smile and laugh when it doesn’t come out form my heart. It tiring.
I shall quiet down.
Don’t talk, do more and more more then dad wouldn’t lecture me anymore.
I don’t irritate those stupid people, you guys leave me alone too.
I appreciate…
Why is my blog always so unhappy?
Whenever I read other blog they are always happy enjoying. Why cant I be like them? Why?
Why?
=Will someone else step into my life or will I still be waiting for him after 2 years?=
Where were you when skies were grey
7/18/2006 09:32:00 PM <3
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