我真没用…
眼泪掉了又掉…
I kept myself busy, working non-stop, until I totally drench myself out.
I am dead tired.
Sweep the floor, mop the floor, do the account prepare cheque (which I hate most of all) clean the window and door panel….wash the whole family clothes, arrange everything in office… I find all means to keep myself busy so not to think of anything.
Am I avoiding?
The mins I ended work yesterday, while I walk to the mrt station tear rolled again, as I was in the mrt on the way to training, I cant stop crying. I wish there was something for me to do to distract me away.
I couldn’t help thinking. Everywhere I go to there is memories around. I seem to see that he is around but when I go near everything gone. Is this illusion?
Surprise that he called me yesterday to ask me out Haiz too bad I was having my lifeguard training else… I told myself that no way I could skip lesson so I give it a pass. Deep down being very upset, but what to do.
I am trying hard to let it go.
I hold myself back.
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Training was good yesterday my timing improve until 3.03mins.
From 3.50 to 3.40 to 3.03 next I am going to aim beyond that timing. I will do it. I can do it. I will have to train extra hard.
I want my six-pack. I want to be a fit girl…
I want be to be pretty!
Where were you when skies were grey
7/20/2006 07:40:00 PM <3
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