In the office now, nothing much to do so was looking into the documents saved in my lappie. I came across this document that I have saved. I went through it again. Based on what he say was quite true...Erm very true? Im n0t sure I think so.
The impact on me no one will ever feel it. Im not trying to say I am the most pathetic person, there are people out there who are much worse then me but still I can’t be bother to compare le.
Tired.
**it always seems that I've never really seen you really happy. Cuz whenever I'm out with you, I could somehow feel sadness, tiredness and another thing which I couldn't explain thru your eyes... ** Don't know lehZ, I kinda feel that you're doing your best to enjoy but there seem to be something holding you or bothering you.... But whenever I looK into your eyes, they seem to show a desire to break free, to be free, the yearn for freedom and also, you seem to have a habit of keeping things to yourself, maybe you feel that you shouldn't bother people with your problems bahZ... ** You've vast dreams that you wanna achieve but it seems that often Life seems to be restricting you from achieving what you wanna be...** That's the feeling I get whenever I looK into your eyes...there're other things that I felt from your eyes, but just dunno how to put them into words** Well, I was thinking that perhaps you could open your heart more and voice out how you feel. Maybe you could have been deeply hurt when you once opened up your heart up to someone and now you decided to close it....cuz I kind of feel that you seem to have contradicting thoughts whenever you want to make a choice....it's just a feeling that I always get from you....
** It’s just a feeling that I always get from you....You want to try something but somehow you have this fear as well...** Hmmm....you gave me a feeling that you're a girl that has been hurt too many a times that whenever you want to open up your heart to someone, you'll have an anonymous fear that strikes you...Just wish that you can open up more....well not alot laZ....but bit by bit...
“Sadness, agony, coldness are what I see from your eyes.A girl whose heart has beared too many woundsTears could no longer flow from your heart, for it has dried up long ago
I try to be a friend you could talk, play, joke, crap & trustbut every time before me is a door, closed and locked.You tried to smile. I know.You tried to laugh. I know.You tried to put your sadness behind. I know.You tried to do whatever you can. I know.
Will I ever be a friend at heart in you?And not just another passer-by?I guess only you hold the key to that answer... ...”
After reading it again and again I found it that it’s quite true.
I wish there is some changes in life. But the more I try the more lost I get. Can someone guide me?
I been so depress recently. Lot of things happen which put me down. Each time down down…and deeper down and then deeper deeper down... no words to describe the situation in I am now.
I’m upset depressed but yet I am not showing. Going around smiling and laughing like nobody business. Entertaining people with their jokes. Keep hearing the same things from friends.
Tired very tired can someone understand..
Someone telling me my current lifestyle going to tired me out in no time. Age is catching up and if I continue like this work everyday and get countless hours of sleep I will tired out.
What should I do?
I know there friends out there who care but…..
Sometime I wonder too what I have done for you guys. Do u guys appreciate it?
Do I have a stand of friends in you guys heart?
I think I have overseen friendship. wo ba ta tan de dai zong le...
I should have taken it.
Take friendship as they come and go.
Don’t except any thing from friends.
I don’t need many friends.
I no longer wants large group of friends.
All I want is a few true hard core friends where we stand together. Play together hangs out together. Can I? I dun except much. =
I am hiding in my own world. Don’t want to get hurt anymore. im deeply wounded I don’t want to have anymore wound. It so hurtful so painful. *ouch…..Sobxx sobx...
Yuehui ah Yuehui you have to see open. Don’t care don’t bother so much maybe life be better. Isn’t that so?
Where were you when skies were grey
4/20/2006 11:00:00 PM <3
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