finally i can sit down and blog.im so tired.yesh it 11.55pm nw..5 more mins to chinese new year eve!!
im have yet to clean many stuff.mummy is aslp..she havent been slping for night because she has to finish those orders of pineapple tarts.poor her.she is damn tired..sis is sick..she is down with sore thoart cough n flu.haiz.as for dad he came back late.he onli care about working n nothing else.he dont help out with the housework.he know nuts he doent even know which pail is for moppping and stuff.he will keep question which is so irrirtating i might as well do it myself. smtime i wonder work is impt but wat about family?he dun even know my age or watever stuff..haiz.~
i just finish cleaning the sofa the tv the coffee table.m taking a break now.i been doing all the hsework since last wk i think.im in charge of all the housework.doing all alone i finally understand how tiring was mum in the past.haiz~ didnt really deco the house.till the very last mins we are still cleaning there are tons of clothes to be wash n iron.i vacuum the floor 2 3 time per day..mop it 2 to 3 time per day yet i feeel its so dusty n dirty haiz..just sm simple deco.if u happen to drop by my house for visiting..dun be surprise.mum is working dad is working im working.sis wun help with housework de..so there no time like the past. everything has changed. everyone tired..damn tired.abt housework work fren and stuff..
needless to say, im loking forward to chinese new year which happen once every year.i always look forward to this festival where all relative gather mit each other and we ll have tons of thing to catch up with.the dinner we have on the table together is so enjoyable.full of laughter and fun. those memories are the most valueable.no matter hw rich u are u nv buy these. there are not much of goodies , only brought little. because each time after new year there are sure leftover so this is we din havign any leftover..lolz.
this year i went chinatown for liek 5th to 6th timees..lolz.went with fren uncle cousin n stuff..lolz.so many times right..actually tonight i had a date with sam.we agree to o chinatown togteher. i told him no matter wat i be waiting for his ans.he said he will he will reply.
took half day leave today.came back do housework.been looking forward to evening time where we go out togtether end up disappointment filled me.i was so damn disappointed.i sms him he din reply. i msg him in msn he din reply too..5pm....i waited an hour passes 6pm...i shower and prepare for dnner....7 pm ..8pm...9pm..i was still pinning hope.i went market to loiter around there was not fulled pple though..10pm the ch8 tv drama ends...11pm...nw now 12.04pm e no news at him before.i shall give up..i guess im stupid.smtime i tk date as so impt.if i give smone my promise i will always complete it.acomplished the tasks.i believe in giving other my trust.but why not other. i waited patiently each itme but end up with disappoiinted..i hate dispapoinment can u just go away..jus go as far as u can..mind you?
mayb i shall change myself.put pple plane.give empty promise.......isnt all thesesshit thta you all gave mi?? now i give you guy i return isnt it go0d? be fair right??
But i din think i will do that..my own rules doesnt wan mi to do all these too ..can i jus receive a bit of fair treatment?
ohya.just now made a trip to the wet market.tonight is the night where they open 24hours.then they will close for new year.been year since i went so i went down with my cam n took quite a number of pics.there are quite a no of pic starin at mi there i can onli tk pic secertly, so noone notice ..e pic din nt turn out 2 be wat i wan but nvm..=]
let talk abt ytd miting at far east.i was the organiser once again.everyone turn up except jade as her mum is coming to spore.xm yj yq wl and mi.the five of us.yea 5 of us everythign goes on.even if there onli 3 of us we will still go on.dinner at "sunflower cafe" was great..everyone enjoyed..then we went to "kfc" to chat n have a drink..everyone went well.yq n xm wa sbusy talkign abt their company stuff.wl n yj was tlaking abt another topics.i was alone again.their topics was like no link to me therefore there no way i can cut in.i thereforesat there quietlu n finish my food n listn to them .it great to c everyone gather.it so nice.although im stil the one being left out.
took lotsa of pics.at elast there is memories with us when we grad.fun i shall say..we off went our own way at arounf 10.20pm time passes so fast when we are together.haiz..time can u slower down?
**muaching on my tibit nw..haha **
erm ohya gt another thign to say...sorry ah bits here n there.erm...ZZ birtday coming act planned to give him a surprise but i dun think can ba..i dun hv much cash now..i din buy him any present yet.i think im gg to give him money ba..i owe him too much return him everything clear everything..saw his sis ytd ta orchard too..so concidence..erm..i dunno lei we are fren ba..or mayb i think to much ..dunw an to say ba..haiz..
argh!! iwan to go clubbing i wan to go drink i wan to make myself drunk!!!! argh!! can smone pei mi...but dun drink..just to watch over me??? can ma...haiz..
andy comign back this sun ..early morn.great toknow he is coming back.im overwhelm.i might nt know him for everyl on gitme but then he is always there for him..well other fren when i first knew them they are awlays here for mi too but end up as time goes by thing get apart.is this always thecasE? mayb i should really get used to it..face the fact ba..
*yawn...Valentine day is coming.everyone is asking mi if im attached..everyone aking mi to find a bf fast.everyone asking mi to look for a part time bf for that particaular day..im liek are u carazy...lolz..i will still say the same thing.if it will come it will else nvm lo wait lo..i wish to find my prince charming this year..erm i wish i can put the effort in to tk oftf this particular ring off my finger and throw it into the sea...i await for this day to come..well.. i await for a nice romantic valentine day..
J..i wan my xmas present..lolz i think the present can turn into chinese new year present else valentine day present le..lol we shall realy mit one day man.hai zyoz..ill blog again...
erm more to say but mi tire..nx time then..night..
Where were you when skies were grey
1/27/2006 11:50:00 PM <3
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