each time when im unhappy i go watch firework...where u guys might ask mi ..here it is..
http://megaweb.clubsnap.org/fireworks/is fake..but it does make mi feel beta i guess..i used to go basketball court n watch other play...but nw rather lazy...watvching friework can be great t0o...although it kinda fake..
went to the dcotor jus nw..he was so firece..he said its germ infection..apply cream n eat medicine..
heart kinda pain lo..coz very ex..it been rather long since i visit a doctor..actually no nid to c docotr own self apply sm medicine will do isnt it so ..haiz..
miss him..he in outfield..the weather is on n off hope he is doing well..
sat outing most prob cancel le ba..
no reply from anyone haiz..
i hope S can make mi pei mi go ccyle..l0ok forward to mit him..
was talking to A jus nw..his birthday is on the 20 of nov..we was thinking of celebrating together..well i m nt sure too ..i jus wish to have a small celebration best if my fren can turn up..else even its that special him to celebraet for mi i be gad..it been vv v v v v v long since i celebrated..nt liek last yr ended up as a disappointment..very sadz de..
haiz..will it happen?? dun wan to htink so much..i hv no plan..dunno wat to plan at all..
trying to make effort on everythign i do..
tmr YJ is tking half day leave..i be alone...
there is alot of work to do...nx wk be very busy coz nid to go cleanroom n do experiment sputtering n more..im tired..v tired..i wanna go ikea purchase smthing..looking for smone to go with mi but noone interested..haiz..
hate it..hate htis feeling..
....tml be better..!Pray hard..
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blogging for the 2nd time..im so tulan..this sat otuign cancel le..y y im makign effort each time to ask pple out yet...
i dunno i end up disappointed again n agin n again..im so upset..im tired.
why m i so stupid knowing it ll fail yet i kept on trying..feel tired n tualn wat for right..
i ll go alone...i ll survie alone..im tired....
*tear rolled down once again...hate It..
argh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!im gg ot bed............dun wan to think anymore..
Where were you when skies were grey
10/13/2005 10:02:00 PM <3
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