kids are so lucky..they hv no trouble at all..no problem no unhappiness onli cried when they r hungry..all they do is play eat slp play eat slp and this continue..
as we grow up there are more things we have to face. these stuff made us mature make us grw up..making us to think how to move on how to make life more meaningful..
it hard to free from worries and troubles. i tried to be happy go lucky kinda person but i found out that i dint do a gd job and i cant really make it.
On the surface..when im in front of the other i ll appear to be more optimistic to be like the happy mi be like nothign can can trouble mi ..but when this happen..deep within mi the more pessimistic im...does anyone know?? i know myself..
im always there to give other advise..telling them hw great they can be ...telling them the hard work they give in they ll achieve wat they derserve..but wat abt myself..i did tell myeslf try to look on the bright side n dun tk thing too hard..saying is always easy trying to convive oneself is hard..damn hard..
i really hate myself..these few days i been crying..tears are dying up..im so tired..
alot of thign happen during this period of time.but i was too tired to go aginst it or protect myself..all i could do was to keep crying..
i dunno why ..i tot i was a strong gal..telling other i can tk it but yet it wasnt true..
deceiving myself..lying to myself..wat is this..
noone can understand hwo i feel..wat is the hell going on in my life..noone...and i mean NOONe..
despite the good times and memories that has happen in my life kept mi going on but the bad times n the scars in mi is never heal and it hurting mi again n again..
blood dripping here n there..no pt clearing it..just leaving there..not caring to clear it or even bandage it..
where is my guiding angel..
where is the road to everything..
exam comign in 1 wk time..
im studying very hard..trying my v best but i nid help too ..
lost..
the result for 2nd review was out..
the pple ard mi gt it..except mi..
tear rolled i kept silence..not wanting to say a single word..lazy to utter a word..
i wish them the best..go for ya best results..go for wat u hv been awaiting for..
been crying..when the tear has rdy up everything be fine..
i ll be strong n stand up..
right now..i cant even stand..dun wanna stand..dun feel liek standing..noone can pull mi up at all..
im patheic isnt that so...
haiz..life so pointness..
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==the YuehUi you s3e is N0t thE reAl...is The fAke 0nE..==
Where were you when skies were grey
8/30/2005 11:58:00 AM <3
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