i hate being force to do the thing i dun wan to...like gg to temple.
all the along...i was jus tryin not to anger mummy...coz if i do that i know i wun hv peaceful life..hate being force to temple..n sit there for like 2 hr n listen to a kinda of lecture..i wun simply slp n my sis ll wake up again and again..
hate it..
why muz i always b there one to entertain pple?? why m i acting like a clown..i dun understand myself either..
bringing laughter to others..yet deep inside mi ..im like a piece of shit..
deep in mi..im deeply hurt..unhappy patheic...
always deciving myself..
wat the hell im doing haiz..
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sentosa...i wanna go sentosa it been a month since i went there..
haiz i miss it so much....miss the times where i go there like 3 time per week. doesnt matter if it goign alone or with my frenz...it left mi with alot of memories..
a place where it shared my joy n saddness...
the sea n sand that i talk to ..
the place where i tk alot of picture...
a place where i saw the sun rise n sun set...
many many more..wish i could bring back everything..
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miss my frenz..where r there..
had a dream last night...i was all alone in this place..crying..nthing much happen in the dream but ...had a urge of gathering all my fren up..
it remind mi of a trip which was organised my mi...40 pple...all turned up for the sentosa trip we had fun laughter...i wan this back...
god give mi all these back..
if we wasnt held back by our work n studies...we will hv the time to be toegther..isnt that great..mayb i thinking abit too much..
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im going to ecp tml...cycle!!!
yeah!!
i look forward to the trip..sis guan xiong manfred randy n myself...we gnna tk plently of pics i guess..hahaz..
each outing there always like 50 60 plus pics lolz..guess tml be more..lolz
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sunday is here!! enjoy!!
Where were you when skies were grey
6/11/2005 11:38:00 PM <3
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