im backie...backie from the trip..
it was kinda boring.siting there listening to the talk.i wasnt interested at all.was feezing as the aircon was so cold.too lazy to bring my jacket..i hate going to temple..why..u guys might be wondering dun like to go why stil go ..i have my problem proob that u might nt undertsand im doing the sake for the sake of sm stuff...there is no meaning at all especialy u r being force to do somethings that u dun like..its kinda stupid wasting time..feeling so pissed off unhappy.
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i hate loneliness.cant tolerate loneliness..sweets memories flooded my mind when i think back...the times where my exs dotes on mi alot giving mi wat i wan the time they put into mi..why why we ended up breaking up..why did i become the 3rd party..why i was the last to know i was the 3rd party..why why...everything ended so fast.i have always look forward for a wonderful r/s.hate arguement..was too tired to arguemnt.i chose to let go ..it hurts...hurts..but stil i htink i was avoid i dunno sometime..i jus wish i was attach..wish there someone to b etere..but i told myself wta is yours will b yours..if not yours no matter hw to try to get it somehow it ll go off one day..
well now i ll spend on time on frenz ba miting them for cooffee n stuff if they weere to leave mi i dunno wat ll happen..
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i hate things that changes in my life..hate when things will to change..hate when i hv o adapt to new things that change...hate it jus hate it..
i have grown up shld learn to adpat but i jus cant,...i m trying very hard le....haiz/.
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recently i been cursing n scolding pple...tlaking abt pple..i dunno wat got into mi..
i dun do that...till these few day wat happen to mi..
i promise myself not to do that anymore..dun tlak abt other dun curse dun talk behind pple ...
forgive me if i hurt u in anywhere...
forgive me everyone...
forgive me for behaving like that...
forgive me for not being focus these few days...
forgive me for being selfish...
forgive me for not knowing what i want...
forgive me... this is me.
im soRRy...
goonna stop here...gg zzzzZZZzZ might b gg town tml with manfred n randy..
cya..tkcare..
Where were you when skies were grey
5/28/2005 11:05:00 PM <3
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